i can't sleep

my head is buzzing

:(

I've noticed that my friends are putting 2008's lists. What was good, what was bad, what was terribleee. And theyre making more list for 2009. What they want, what they hope, what they need.

I thought about this for 3 minutes, because ive been doing everything in the last few days to no thing about this at all.

All i can say is that 2008 was the first year in over 5 years where i had not one single session with my therapist. 2008 was the year where i lost my dearest most precious job and face financial insecurities on my own. That was so hard, mentally it is so hard. 2008 was the year where i studied something that is going to get me a real job. That was good.

5 months were a blur with working and studying and not seeing my bf a lot. I remember 3 months of hardcore study for my homosexuality paper. I remember a lot of rain...i remember mini breakdowns. But i remember some good times too.

It was a year of transition i guess.

For 2009...i wish myself good grades. I want to kick serious ass at school. I wanna keep working for Renaud-Bray cos i like it and i like the 30% off. I want to breathe better, i want to stop having this sick feeling in my stomach i get so many times. And i dont want to be scared anymore. Cos im still am all the time.

The best of 2008<3


Movies
Burn after reading; Mama mia!; The bank Job; Iron Man; Wanted; Happy go lucky; Vicky Cristina Barcelona; WALL-E; The Dark Knight; Doubt; The reader; Twilight

Television
OZ; Dexter; Top Chef; Project runaway; Damages; Mad Men; My so-called life; Witch Hunter Robin

Books
The post-birthday world by Lionel Shriver; The unabridged journals of Sylvia Plath; The absitence teacher by Tom Perrotta; Blindness by Jose Saramago; Queen of fashion by Caroline Werber; Twilight by Stephanie Meyer; A song of ice and fire saga by George R.R. Martin

Comics
Kabuki; Fables

Music
Santogold; Goldfrapp; Kings of Leon; Wilco; Queen; Rufus Wainwright; Mylene Farmer; David Bowie; Les Chansons d'amours soundtrack; Sia, Radiohead, Kayne West; Dido; Radiohead; Lady Gaga; Katy Perry, Wolfsheim, Muse

People
Tim Gunn; Freddy Mercury; Robert Pattisson; Nicole Kidman; Claire Danes; Michelle Obama, The new president of the United-States; Karl Lagerfeld; Vanessa Paradis; Brian Molko; Philip SH.; Girls Aloud; Tina Fey; Robert Downey Jr