Im updating because:

Theres still people reading this blog, i dont know why...you crazy people?!
and because
It's been awhile.

So im reading: Atonement
It's good and awesome and lovely and scary.

What im doing: Trying to survive finals. Trying to enjoy life while finals. Trying not be be completly sucked out of life whiles finals. Trying to be confident in the future- while having these panic attacks BECAUSE OF FINALS.

Thinking: Moving to Utah. Im sure they need a french, a canadian (in one person-which is me) almost sane or insane (depends of the point of view) lazy but friendly girl. Why? Because its so far away from what ive lived in a urban city that RIGHT NOW IT LOOKS APPEALING. Even if theres mormons.

What's my mental health: For the first time in years, i can actually remember what happened to me in the last couple of months, I can remember smells, images, people, situations, conversations. For years, my life has been about living and forgetting it the next day. Right now, i can remember how i walked from UQAM to Concordia...first with the warm but chilly at the same time september weather, then the chilly but oh so goodlooking fall air, then the snow...i remember!!! I remember seasons!

I must be living then...? Right right

And yes im still jealous of the skinny ones, pretty ones, easy breathy people, the super smart, the super rich. Im a walking jealous machine. But im a nice jealous. I more in awe of them then anythign else. Because theyre like shining toys to me. And at the end, ive never really been into toys.

But let's stop with the nonsense...

JAMIE-LYNN SPEARS IS PREGNANT.!!!! Britney's 16 years old sister is pregnant.

NEWS OF DECEMBER FER SURE.