whech So im re-watching season 2 of Buffy and this is the season where Buffy and Angel blooms into unconditionnal love and etc. There's also Spike who is maybe my ultimate favorite in Buffyuniverse. Theres Cordelia and Xander...Oz and Willow. And almost every episode is a little delicious perfect 43 minutes spent. Angel is a newly favorite of mine and even is he has a hairless body- i find him sexy..? This is extremely shocking to me.

Im feeling a better. I don' t feel like i want to die anymore. Last week was really between start to work or die. And really dying sounded better.

I got the results from my psy- exam. I havent read them. But i know that im getting better, and that im no where near insanity. It's a good feeling. Im proud of me. With all the stuff i've been reading about traumas and people who went through madness. One thing is clear no matter how much you've been hurt, crushed, stripped of your natural defenses- the one step between sanity and insanity is a choice.

You let it go, all go and you fall into another kind of reality or you force yourself even though it's the most painfull thing ever, you force yourslef to stay here, in the real world. And face what you have to face to get better.

There's a few weeks, maybe 2 months where i could feel it, i was one step away and i just couldnt go this low. I couldn't. And it's good to be passionnate about stuff, even if it's silly stuff because these silly stuff make you want to be there, and not just be gone in your own outher space.

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school almost done

im having a major party in my head thursday night