Im floating and im trying so hard to swim. Im trying so hard not to shut myself and fuck everything. Im trying to knock on things, touch things, talk to friends because i need to remind me that this is reality and reality is the only way where i can live and experience real things. It's silly that i can go into a almost mental catonic state just because its my finals. It's silly and it's too bad and i almost pity myself .

stay afloat
stay afloat
stay afloat

i wish i could be in my bf's bed and fall asleep and wake up next week.
i wish i wish i wish