Im feeling spineless. I can't stand up.

It's the feeling where eveything feels wrong and bad and terrible. I had a good day, im lucky since nothing bad happens to me, mostly.

Tomorrow i will either lie and take a day off. Start again, get my blood running again. Curl myself in bed and lay down under layers of covers.

Or im not going to lie, and go through what i supposed to go through.

Why do we always ask "how are you". When the answer is already restricted to being 'im ok' 'im not ok' ? I know its not hypocrisy but sometimes i can't stand it.

im tired tired tired

tired tired tired