I don't think im going to live long. And i think i'll live alone.
So what should i do? How should i think. Death is all around me. I don't feel like i deserve a long happy life.
But what's the maximum for living a live you can't assume?

but i want to love
and be loved
and i want to cook food
and watch movies
and read all the book i want to read
i want to have cats.

Im sad by writing this. I hope i'll make it through.