Omg nobody knows what it feels like. It's such a selfish thing to say really but im the one with my brain. Im between absolute sadness/ heartbroken for a future that is yet to happen and being just totally in love and not caring about anything else. And seriously so what if it's not forever, so what if he doesnt loves me or whatever. I can't just ruin my own happiness and good delicious moments and seriousness love by these thoughts. Im not being dramatic and im not doing it on purpose and it's not fun or cool or deep. Im not crazy. I just happen to feel overwhelmed by being in love and i feel like im not measuring up but i the same time i do. It doesn't make sense. And it's really good and scary but i feel fine with him. But the totalness of it is that i shoould really STFU and get it over with be like ok i love you, no biggie.

But yeah i had a GREAT evening. So like different and better and good-er than last year. Oh fuck. I think im overreacting because i feel happy. Ok im crazy.

Let's do the god-awfull- cheesy thing now!!!!!!!!!!

Audrey LOVES Alexandreee

he's teh pretty and i love him and i want to live under his skin or just fuck forever or maybe cuddle with his cats and read sandman or just stare at him and then rape him in the kitchen while hes making cookies for our after sex.

yayyy!!!