I can't even read the entries i wrote when i was off celexa. I seem so pityful, out of it and seriously tortured. It's a shame really.
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I watched 'Hard Candy' twice. The extras with directors, producter, writer's interviews helped me realized why i didnt love the movie. The plot, the story, every little thing in this movie was made to shock. I was watching it and i could imagine the writer- writing the dialogue- trying to make it disturbing and thoughtful and shocking and etc. Its so sugarcoated with 'underground- arty-vision- we are not a big studio film' that its almost like a joke. Anyways, it's weird. I liked it. Not loved it. But still. It's a big deception.
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Everytime i see bf/gf who are not holding hands, i wonder how, why, how, why, how. I do not know how they do it. Or why do they not do it?. Its strange to watch these kind of people who seems so disconnected of each other. Weirdness.